How Do You Love?

And the truth that you'll find, will always be -
The truth you hide.
So, how do you love
How do you love
When your angels cant sing -
And your world is still lacking of me?

For the price of a dime I can always turn to you.

(I wrote this post yesterday, but when I hit "publish post" I got an error msg and I lost it. Shit, I know It was probably much better than this one, I can't be my cool creative self 2 posts in a row. Blogger Bastards!)

Have you ever memorized a phone number by the location of the buttons on the phone? Or maybe its the pattern used, I don't know and it's probably stupid but I do that, after I know a number for a while I forget the number and just remember the pattern on the phone. I know, I'm flicted or dyslexic or something, but that's just me. There is one pattern I will never forget.

I have a lot of stupid little things I do to help me remember shit. I wonder if I will end up having alzheimers or something when I'm older. Kindve scary actually. I always have to say out loud what color the traffic light is that I'm about to go under, like "Green" or "Red". I guess cause I'm afraid I don't trust my short term memory, I'm always asking myself while I'm in the middle of the intersection, was that red or green??? No I have never ran a red light, but hell, maybe I'm wrong! I've caught myself saying my poker hands out loud when looking at my cards. Not a very "Moneymaker" thing to do, and I have no clue I'm doing it when I do it. Ah, maybe I smoked too much dope when I was younger.

Semisonic

Act Naturally

Our little secret just might be the kind of thing that you can'thide
It's growing like a tangled vine & rising like a river in thetide
And everybody knew when you walked into the room
I was just a fool for you, nothing I could do
Everybody sees you taking control of me
Well I'm not begging for release
I'm just begging darling please, please

Act Naturally
Don't let our troubles show
Don't let anybody know
Till we get it figured out
Don't give them anything that they could doubt

Our little problem doesn't seem to be about to go away
As far as I can tell it's gonna keep on showing more with everyday
And everybody look, yeah, that was all it took
I can't help believing they can read me like a book
So hide your feelings tight till we figure how to make it right
I don't know what I should but I
Would do it if I could

Act Naturally
Just be you beautiful
Just be you casual
I'll be me before the fall
You be you before this all came down
(Act Naturally)
Don't let our troubles show
Don't let anybody know
Till we get it figured out
Don't give them anything that they could doubt

Just be you beautiful
Just be you casual
I'll be me before the fall
You be you before this all came down

Long Time No C

Well, its been a while, but I'm still here. I guess there are a lot of things I need to talk about, or rather could talk about. So let me see what all's been going on...

-Wendall Had surgery Wednesday for a mammary tumor (breast cancer), She came through it OK I guess, but its so weird how much a part of the family she is. She isn't supposed to jump or do anything real physical, but she insists on sleeping on top of the couch which involves a lot of jumping, oh what we do for pets. I was reading about this tumors online and for the most part, they don't seem as bad on dogs as people. But then it said that there is a 2 year life expectancy after one is removed. Two years? That seems too short. Life without her would suck big time, I can't believe I'm so attached to her.

-My boss at work has put in his 2 week notice. This really sucks. Not that I'm a big fan of his but for numerous other reasons. First of all, any time you have a new boss come in house, they want to change the world. And you have to change right along with them, for the most part I'm a creature of habit, changes suck. So we are down to 1 Supervisor on 2nd shift and 1 on 3rd, and 2 on first, so anytime someone on the back shift wants to be of, I have the wonderful decision of either working 2nd or 3rd shift, or working 12 hours the days they are out. Work sucks, I need to win the lotto, or find a rich woman to take me away.

-I went to the movie tonight and saw "Friday Night Lights". A movie about high school football, and it did bring back a lot of memories, some good and some bad. It was weird when you actually played though, hard to describe but almost like you don't hear the crowd at all, and everything is moving in slow motion until you get hit, then eveything explodes into action. I wish I could go back and redo it, as I would redo lots of things. I know, wish in one hand and sh*t in the other and see which fills up the fastest huh?

-A friend is going to Ft.Myers Fla to do some computer work. Just hearing that name brings back so many memories. I know I will never forget.

Well, I thought I had lots to talk about, but actually I guess I don't, I've worked like 21 days in a row, so its just been work and then home. I guess that at least keeps me out of trouble. But I'm off 2 whole days in a row now, no real plans, maybe washing my truck & watching the Braves, nothing exciting.

Mr.Wendall 

Dad - 1937  

And thats "SIR BOSS" to you buddy! 

Nuther Day - Nuther Dollar

Days seem to pass in a blur. At times I wonder who I am even. There are parts of my life that couldn't be better, and other things...

What is it that makes us happy in life? Is life even supposed to be measured in happiness? What if - what little time we have is being wasted on working 10hrs a day and not living it to the fullest. Why do I feel guilty for having 1 day off a week? As I guess you probably can tell today has been a heavy day for me. Some times I can deal with it, and put on a happy face and go on, other days are harder. I have so many good people in my life that lends support and friendship, I shouldn't complain at all. OK enough already. I'm sure when my number is called, I'll be ready.

Southern-isms

• Peaches - Georgia has the best peaches, Canada's peaches are for northern people who don't know what a real peach is supposed to taste like.


• Peanuts - In order to be a true southerner, you must either put peanuts in your bottled Coke, or understand the meaning.


• Coniption - What your mother has when she finds out your wearing her Sunday hose to go deer hunting in.


• Bar-B-Q - Pork is the standard.  Chicken and/or beef are eaten at times, but isn't liked as much as pork.  Sauce must be made with vinegar & be orange, anything with sugar or honey classifies as dip and not sauce.


• Co-Cola - Any carbonated drink in the south.


• Krispy Kreme - THE best doughnut made


• Tupperware - A product sold much like Avon that requires ladies having parties and/or bugging you with catalogs.  Items consist mainly of plastic kitchenware.


• Tractor Pull - Any event that draws more than 500 spectators and involves mud and/or junkyard cars.


• Kin Folk - Relatives.


• Soul Food - Not fried chicken as most people above Tennessee may think. Soul food may consist of (but not be limited to): collards, turnips, any part of the pig you would consider inedible,  ox tails, rutabagas, butter roll, corn bread & sweet tea.


• Coon Hunt'in - A practice of letting 2 to 4 dogs loose in the middle of the night to track a raccoon, the time it takes to "tree" a coon is used to consume alcohol of choice.


• Snipe Hunt'in - An imaginary animal used to entice girlfriends or naive people to the cemetery with a burlap sack to catch them (the cemetery is the only place they are found, and they also only come out during full moons).


• Family Reunions - Any gathering of 3 or more siblings and/or cousins with all their kids and each family must bring a covered dish.  Normally there are more dessert dishes than vegetable dishes.  A minimum of 3 barrels of chicken is required.


• Moon Pie - Lunch during summer breaks while working on the farm.


• Sweet Tea - 6 Tea bags soaked in a pot of water that has just boiled. A minimum of 3 cups of sugar per gallon is required.  The pitcher must be set in the refrigerator at least an hour before serving so when poured over ice it wont melt the ice and weaken the tea.


• Aint - How we say we aren't.


• Y'all - Other variations is You'uns - Meaning a group of people.


• Bidnis - A place of employment, or where you may go pay your bills.


• Booger Man - How we make kids mind.


• Cattycorner - Not laying something straight, crooked.


• Chicken Fried Steak - A piece of round steak beaten until soft, deep fried with flour and seasoning and toped with sawmill gravy.


• Sawmill Gravy - Made with the juice of whatever meat you may be cooking, milk flour, salt & pepper.


• Mash - How you "Push" a button. "Mash that button"


• Cut - How to "Turn" off an electrical item.  "Cut off the TV"


• Fixen to - How you describe what your about to do.


• Grits - Eaten with any breakfast and every Friday night with Catfish.


• Lace Bread - Its hard to describe, but I love it (some type of cornmeal made bread)


• Nairey - None.


• PeaCan - The correct way to pronounce pecan, not pea-khan.


• Muscadine & Scuppernongs - Grape like fruit grown only in the south.


• "Where are they at?" - The word at must be used when asking for someones location.


• Youngun - Babies

Smell This

Do you associate smells & Music with memories? I guess I do. It came up in conversation this weekend, and I got to thinking how we think about the past when listening or smelling something. For instance, here's a short list:

* Coconut Suntan Lotion - Panama City, 1984
* Gloria Vanderbilt - My first crush
* Kentucky Fried Chicken - Mom & Cathy
* Cinnamon - Christmas
* Vanilla - Pam
* Krispy Kreme - MMMMM
* Rick Springfield - Teresa
* Sister Christian, Night Ranger - No idea of her name, but she was in Panama City too, wow
* Big Log, Robert Plant - Pam
* Juke Box Hero, Forigner - Jeff

Lots more, but I guess some are secret. If you want to make a lasting impression on my life, smell good baby!

I like Christian Slater

Not my very favorite actor, but one that is definitely in top of the list. Something about the way he seems like a "guys guy". "True Romance" & "Bed Of ROses" are probably my favorite, but he has lots of others that are great too. Check them out if you get a chance.

1 Masked and Anonymous 2003
2 Who is Cletis Tout? 2002
3 Windtalkers 2002
4 3000 Miles to Greaceland 2001
5 The Contender 2000
6 Hard Rain 1998
7 Very Bad Things 1998
8 Tears of Julian Po, The 1997
9 Basil 1997
10 Broken Arrow 1996
11 Bed of Roses 1996
12 Murder in the First 1995
13 Interview with the Vampire 1994
14 Jimmy Hollywood 1994
15 Untamed Heart 1993
16 True Romance 1993
17 FernGully: The Last Rainforest 1992
18 Kuffs 1992
19 Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves 1991
20 Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country 1991
21 Mobsters 1991
22 Young Guns II 1990
23 Tales from the Darkside: The Movie 1990
24 Pump Up the Volume 1990
25 Wizard, The 1989
26 Gleaming the Cube 1989
27 Heathers 1989
28 Beyond the Stars 1989
29 Tucker: The Man and His Dream 1988
30 Twisted 1986
31 Name der Rose, Der 1986
32 Legend of Billie Jean, The 1985

Who Knew?

When I was younger, my favorite toy was G.I.Joe I would dream of getting 1 or 2 every Christmas. I had several, but my favorites were the adventure sets, with the vehicles and lots of accessories. Another favorite of mine was the small plastic army men that we could always find so many ways to play with, or should I say battle with. They were also useful for using them as firecracker fodder. The normal type of play with these little guys would be to line them up in offensive or defensive positions and use a superball to knock them over. The "official" rules stated that the only soldiers killed were the one's hit after the first bounce only. This brought hours of enjoyment to my brother and I. Several other toys that I was nerd'd out on were the following:

- Vertibird
- The Thing Maker
- Jarts Oh right, a very safe toy Mom!
- Rockem Sockem Robots
- Battleship

Plus many more, but its late and I'm sleepy.

For future reference, black does not constitute as a "primary" color.

Ah, my desktop. And yes, this is the reason I'm so happy today! Will write later, for now, pizza & beer! 

I LURVE my new external HD! Coolness!! 

The 20 Best Sports Movies Of All Time!

20- Chariots Of Fire
19- For Love Of The Game *
18- Remember The Titans *
17- Cobb
16- Breaking Away
15- The Bad News Bears *
14- Eight Men Out
13- Mystery Alaska
12- North Dallas Forty
11- Bull Durham
10- The Rookie *
09- Brians Song *
08- Jerry McGwire *
07- Caddyshack
06- The Natural *
05- Vision Quest
04- Field Of Dreams *
03- Rudy *
02- Hoosiers *
01- Rocky *

* = Tear Alert

The sun even shines on a dog's ass some days

I am sure BLOGing has caused me problems in the past; how, you may ask? Well trust me, it has. I open myself up to all kinds of involuntary incite here (sure, by my own doing). I am an asshole, but I guess everyone is at times. I do have feelings, but doesn't the next guy? Where is this going? WTF knows. I just know it seems every time I find or do something good, I manage to fuck it up. Maybe its cause I care too much, hell maybe its cause I don't care enough. I wonder at times where I'm going or where I even came from. I am getting to a point in my life where my past is a lot easier to look at than my future, that's sad, that's got to change. There are good things in my life now. And I'm going to try the best way I can to figure up how not to screw that up, yet again. Help me.

Still Here

Well, it wasn't as bad as Frances, which surprised a lot of people. At least for us here anyway. I know there is a lot of damage in Alabama and Florida, but kind of went around us. No power for 3 or 4 hours, no real big deal. Now lets get ready for Jeanne.

My daughter was selling candy for her band at school. I took the book to work and let the ladies pass it around and ended up selling a couple of sheets worth of stuff. So anyway, it was delivered the other day, now I gotta lug all of it to work and collect money for it, sheesh.

Hmmmm, not a lot to talk about. Guess I shall go finish watching my movie. Goodnight.

The Calm Before The Storm

Today was eerie, grey out and a lot of clouds, but no rain, just cool strong winds. Ivan has decided to take his time in getting here. And I'm afraid he will be taking his time to leave too. From the news tonight, the eye has hit Panama City, and I am roughly 130 miles away. Preparations are being made, but some things you just miss whether your prepared or not. Here is a good site for info if you live anywhere in the southeast USA.

I held a meeting with all my employees this afternoon and told them we were still scheduled to work tomorrow, but all the local schools have cancelled the next 2 days. The shop has been readied for the worst, and my house has been checked. Lets rock and roll...

What I'm listing to now: The Storm - I've Got A Lot To Learn About Love (how fitting)

Ivan 9/16/2004 

The Cable Guy

So our cable service was interrupted last month. In other words, they cut our shit off cause we didn't pay it on time. I hate when that happens, especially when the damn money is in the bank! But what qualifies my cable being cut off to be a Blog subject is what happened afterwards. I'm getting home and sit down to check the email, no service, I go to the TV to check out the news, fuzzzz, BASTARDS! About that same time, I get a call from the "the cable guy", he tells me that he will hook us back up and is sitting right outside. Hmmm, This is something new to me, so I say come on in. He tells me that it will be a $15 reconnect fee, plus the megabucks we owe for the months service. I was totally unaware of what the checking account balance was, and had no idea what kind of checks had been written up to that point. So I tell him, dude let me call my wife and I'll get back to ya on this one. So I call her and find out what the balance is and determine I can pay the bill, and the dude calls and asks if I'm ready to be cut on, um yeah I guess, but cant I pay this over the phone with my debit card, well, yeah you can, but then I'll just have to come back and cut it on, and it will take much longer. Is there still a reconnect charge? Yup! Shit, I HATE reconnect charges, money wasted. I'm still skeptical about the whole thing, so I tell him we don't have money to pay it, screw you cable guy bastard! So I get the cable company on the phone and guess what, if you pay on the phone there is no reconnect fee - Oh SHIT, I'm mad now, I HATE being lied to, with a passion. I find out that they don't actually cut anything on, they just are contractors that basically run around and collect. I am tempted not to pay this month just so I can scare the shit outta the guy. Who, me body slam the scrawny cable guy's ass, that wasn't me your honor!