Sunday, December 14



Baby, I know you cannot hear me now
'Cause you're fast asleep
But I love you now
Colors inside your head go spinning around
Like a ferris wheel
Exploding and falling to the ground
Oh, people are screaming, people are screaming
My baby, she's dreaming
Oh, people are shouting, people are freaking
I'm just staring at the ceiling
Waiting for the feeling
Oh, oh but when she calls,
I know she's the one
Makes me want her harder
Makes me want to be a little stronger
Still I see monsters
Still I see monsters

Baby, I know you cannot hear me now
'Cause you're flying around
At the speed of sound
Colors inside your head go spinning around
Like a ferris wheel
Exploding and falling to the ground
Oh, people are screaming, people are screaming
My babies, she's dreaming

Oh, people are shouting, people are freaking
I'm just staring at the ceiling
Waiting for the feeling
Oh, oh when she calls
I know that she's the one
Makes me want it harder
Makes me want to be a little stronger
Still I see the monsters
Still I see the monsters

What I'm Listening To Right Now: I See Monsters - Ryan Adams - Love is Hell / Part 2 (03:58)]

Thursday, December 11

Hey, guess what, I went to SLEEP at 2:40am and up at 6:30am. Yeah I'm sleepy but I'm going to try and stay awake, could get my bad sleeping habits fixed.

Man, I really love No Doubt's new single, or is it new? Its on their Singles 92-03 CD. Oh well, I think its new cause I haven't heard it till recently, but doesn't it sound like a 80's song to you? WATCH THE VIDEO HERE. Its official I think Gwen Stefani is hot.
Gwen
My prediction: The youth will get off crack, crank & extasy, stop listening to Hip-Hop bullshit and start listening to music again. (Is crank & crack the same thing? I'm thinking crank is meth right? Shit when I was young we just smoked a dube and drank a 6 pack and called it a night, oh don't get me started on my views on drugs their just as fucked up as my opinion of everything else!)

Just in case your interested, this is my NETFLIX queue (adding to it constantly):

1. 12 Monkeys
2. 1941
3. 48 Hrs.
4. A View To A Kill
5. Adventures of Robin Hood
6. Amadeus
7. Another 48 Hrs.
8. Anzio
9. Arsenic and Old Lace
10. Bataan
11. Battle of the Bulge
12. Battleground
13. Bend Of The River
14. Blue Max
15. Breakheart Pass
16. Bridge at Remagen
17. Bridge On The River Kwai
18. Bridges at Toko-Ri
19. Bullitt
20. Butch Cassidy & the Sundance Kid
21. Casino Royale
22. Cast A Giant Shadow
23. Charge of the Light Brigade
24. Chato's Land
25. Chasing Amy
26. Chino
27. Chisum
28. Darby's Rangers
29. Dark Command
30. Destry Rides Again
31. Diamonds Are Forever
32. Die Hard
33. Die Hard 2: Die Harder
34. Die Hard: With A Vengeance
35. Dirty Harry
36. Donovan's Reef
37. Dr. No
38. Eagles: Hell Freezes Over
39. Eight Men Out
40. El Dorado
41. Elmer Gantry
42. Enemy At The Gates
43. Far And Away
44. Field Of Dreams
45. Five Easy Pieces
46. For The Love Of The Game
47. Force 10 from Navarone
48. French Kiss
49. From Here to Eternity
50. From Russia With Love
51. Gone With the Wind
52. Gunfight At The O.K. Corral
53. Halls of Montezuma
54. Hamburger Hill
55. Hard Times
56. Harvey
57. Hatari
58. Heaven Knows Mr. Allison
59. Hell Is For Hero's
60. High Fidelity
61. High Noon
62. High Plains Drifter
63. Hondo
64. How the West Was Won
65. In Harms Way
66. It's a Wonderful Life
68. Jay And Silent Bob Strike Back
69. Kelly's Heroes
70. Lawrence of Arabia
71. Lou Gerhig
72. Major Dundee
73. McClintock
74. Memphis Belle
75. Michael
76. Midway
77. Moonraker
78. Mr. Deeds Goes To Town
79. Mr. Majestyk
80. Mr. Smith Goes to Washington
81. Murphy's War
82. My Darling Clementine
83. My Name Is Trinity
84. Napoleon (2002 TV)
85. Never Say Never Again
86. North by Northwest
87. North To Alaska
88. Objective, Burma
89. Octopussy
90. Once Upon a Time in the West
91. Pale Rider
92. Papillion
93. Patton
94. PT 109
95. Quigley Down Under
96. Raid On Entebbe
97. Raid on Rommell
98. Rear Window
99. Richard Pryor: Here And Now
100. Richard Pryor: Live In Concert
101. Richard Pryor: Live On The Sunset Strip
102. Rio Bravo
103. Rio Grande
104. Rio Lobo
105. Rooster Cogburn
106. Run Silent Run Deep
107. Sands of Iwo Jima
108. Seven Samurai
109. Sgt.York
110. She Wore a Yellow Ribbon
111. Shenandoah
112. Silverado
113. Sink The Bismarck
114. Sixteen Candles
115. Sons Of Katie Elder
116. Spirit of St.Louis
117. Stalag 17
118. Strategic Air Command
119. The Blue Max
120. The Cowboys
121. The Desert Fox
122. The Devils Brigade
123. The Dirty Dozen
124. The Eagle Has Landed
125. The Enemy Below
126. The Far Country
127. The Fighting CBs
128. The Fighting Kentuckians
129. The Flying Tigers
130. The Ghost & Mr. Chicken
131. The Guns of Navoraone
132. The Horse Solders
133. The Incredible Mr. Limpet
134. The Kid
135. The Longest Day
136. The Man With The Golden Gun
137. The Professional
138. The Quiet Man
139. The Rare Breed
140. The Reluctant Astronaut
141. The Sand Pebbles
142. The Searchers
143. The Shakiest Gun In The West
144. The Shootist
145. The Spy Who Loved Me
146. The Sting
147. The Undefended
148. The War Wagon
149. The Wild Bunch
150. They Died With Their Boots On
151. They Were Expendable
152. Thunderball
153. To Hell & Back
154. Tora, Tora, Tora
155. Trintity Is Still My Name
156. True Grit
157. Twelve O'clock High
158. Two Mules for Sister Sarah
159. Unbreakable
160. Uncommon Valor
161. Vera Cruz
162. Vertigo
163. Von Ryan's Express
164. Will Penny
165. Winchester 73
166. You Can't Take It With You
167. Zulu



Wish I could call....
I'm sleepy.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Its My Life - No Doubt - The Singles 1992-2003 (03:46)]

Tuesday, December 9

Hmmm, not much to say. No deep secrets to share, no mind blowing revelations I would like to share. Oh well, just thought I would check in. Have a good one.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Elton John - Step Into Christmas - (04:13)]

Friday, December 5

Ah, Blogging, the new American pastime! I was watching Tech TV the other day and they were reading some people's Blogs onair, and they really sounded stupid. I guess if somebody did that to mine, I would feel stupid to, or it would sound stupid. I don't really know why sometimes I like to Blog, or why anyone would. I personally like reading Blog's of 25-30 yr old girls, lol. I like to try and figure out why it was so hard for me to figure them out in my youth (plus its hard to find older chicks Blogs, lol). So, I will continue, hell somebody is reading it, I get plenty of hits (probably still looking for Carnie nude, hey, I have seen the pics, I think she looks good & I was gonna post a link here, but I cant find anything online yet, lol, sorry. Hmm, you see how talented I am, only 6 commas in that last sentence!).

Hey, have you seen the show 6 Feet Under on HBO? I don't watch it onair, but I have started renting the DVDs, man its wild, I don't really know how to descibe it, but I would definitely recommend it. The part i'm trying not to wince at is the 2 gay dudes kissing and "frolicking" around, lol. Have you ever noticed that lol isn't in the spell check? I need to add it to my dictionary I guess, wonder if Webster will do the same. Man if you haven't got it yet, you really need NETFLIX, especially if you have a DVD burner, lol.

Hmm, I always wonder what people do online, like wonder if they've found something I might like. Well here is a list of some of the sites I like to visit. If some have pop-ups, sorry I run a popup stopper (You know, Googles new tool bar blocks popups as well, and no it doesnt take up a lot of desktop space if you arrange it correctly within your current menu bar. Another great Google feature that a lot of people dont know about are these tools & pages.). Any way, here goes:

- Cool Wallpaper
- MP3s (Popups Beware)
- DVD & CD Covers
- Crack Search (Chech out Aria on the right!)
- Adult Humor
- 1 Hit Wonders
- I LOVE checking out the goth girls here!
- Only if your bored silly
- DVD new & upcomming releases
- K-Lite K++ (The Kazaa that you can be invisible in)
- An addictive JAVA game
- Nerd Stuff
- Help forums (These really work when you need computer help, trust me)
- The game I cant go a day without playing

Thats about it, hope you find the sites interesting. Talk soon...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Holiday In Spain - Counting Crows - Films About Ghosts (03:51)]


Wednesday, December 3

Hmmm, not much to report today. Today marks about the 3 week i've been out of work, was supposed to have an appointment today but the doctor was out of the office. I never thought I would miss work, I don't think I do, but I miss getting out and talking to different people. I can see why people that are home all the time have to find things to keep themselves busy or whatever, its very easy to get in a rut and get down on yourself. Whats really scary is that I have found myself going to sleep later and later every night, where now its almost daylight before I get in bed. It seems I watch the 11 o'clock news and then maybe check online for MP3s or make a DVD and then i'm not real sleepy so I will watch a movie, before you know it, its 4am. That's going to really be great when I try going back to work, waking up at 5am, my guess is that I will not have any sleep the first day back at work.

A few neat sites for your last minute holiday shopping:
Harry & David
Swiss Colony
Christmas Gifts (pretty cool listing place)
Amazon (old faithfull)
Italian Gift Ideas
Music Boxes & Stuff
Lower Prices
1 Of My Fav's

And one last thought to leave you with...

AMEN

Thursday, November 27

Nothing really to talk about.

I wonder if I understand my role in this life. I always get confused when I watch a movie or read a book that relates to "the big picture" and where we all fit in. I mean, I was thinking today, why can't everybody be rich and everyone be able to sit on the beach sipping drinks with little umbrellas in them. But then, who would make the drinks for us all the enjoy? Who would labor to make the glasses that we use and the furniture that we sit on? Who would make our rooms up in the 5-star hotels that we all stay at? God I hate thinking like this.

I have this weird obsession with watching documentaries about serial killers. I don't understand what makes people do that, kill innocent people, but then on the same token, what makes people like myself find them interesting, like I said, weird.

You know what sucks? Craving something for a long time and finally getting it and its not really as good as you wanting it to be. Or even worse, getting it, and then getting it again and again and again, until its not a favorite anymore and you've killed the craving forever, bummer.

Do you think everyone is prejudice? I tend to think so. I mean, I don't think everyone goes around hating, but I think everyone is a little prejudice in their own way, whether its something as simple as being the only white or black person in a large group of people, or whether its something as derogatory as being a member of a group such as the KKK. There are exceptions to this I think, I think there is a certain percentage that feel totally opposite and would rather be with the other race, which I think is great if that's what that person really wants. I personally find using the "N" word vulgar and have taught my child not to use it, however, I think that by everyone freaking out about it, it gives the word more power than it deserves. Also, whats this shit about a black person can call another black person this and its OK, bullshit. If its a derogatory work, then lets everyone treat it that way, I do. I think that the PC thing for all white people these days (it seems) is to worry about their thoughts and beliefs, I mean how many people have gotten fired for their offensive remarks and thoughts. I saw Kelly Clarkston on TV the other day and she said something kindve stupid and made the comment "I'm soo white", like she blamed her ethnicity for saying something dumb. Yeah, its fucked up, some of the things people say, and when you really know someone and are alone with them and find out there "real" thoughts on racism or whatever, but, its turned into (I think) something that now I even worry about things I so. You know what, those people are numorous in the white and black crowds. I was talking to a group of mixed race people and made the comment "you people" and after the meeting several of the black member of the meeting stopped by and told me I was being rude by saying that, christ. Yeah, i'm not black, and I haven't had to go through what a black person has had to go through, but hey, i'm fat have they had to go through elementary school with everyone pointing that out to them? i'm a American Indian desendant, and I think it was wrong the way they were treated when this country was founded, but hey I don't hold a grudge about it. Things like the N.A.A.C.P. really rub the average working class white person wrong, what if there were a organization called the N.A.A.W.P.? Shit would hit the fan. This may sound like i'm a very prejudice person, but honestly, I just would like for everyone to see everyone elses side without freaking out about it. You see, using the "N" word is wrong, but what I think is MUCH more important is treating everyone with decency and kindness all the time. If everyone did that, all the time, a word like that wouldn't even be in anyones vocabulary. I have had this conversation with a black friend of mine, and we always disagree, he always tells me that he wouldn't have a problem with his daughter dating a white kid, and he feels just as comfortable around white people as he does black people. that's all good, but when I see him away from the plant, 100% of the time he is with black friends. I'm trying not to sound bitter or whatever hear, I know I am, I just sometimes hate being blamed for being a part of an rich, uncaring, self richeous race, when I don't feel like I am. Do you know when the black ladies at work get paid, they say they gotta go pay the "white man" in reference to paying their bills. i've been told my race has discriminated the black race for so long that now the word and meaning of the word "BLACK" is now bad. Like the bad guy always wears black, when anything bad happens its a black day. For the record, my opinion is that I think there are good people and bad people. I think that you don't have to be white or black or yellow or brown to be either good or bad. I think its in a persons words AND actions that judgment should be formed about that person. And I do think Rodney King was right, why can't we all just get along? OK, i'm done venting, sorry.

Happy Thanksgiving.

25 Movie Stars Whom I Admire (In no particular order):
Audrey Hepburn
Clint Eastwood
Charles Bronson
James Stewart
Robert Deniro
Harrison Ford
Kevin Costner
Daniel Day-Lewis
Dennis Hopper
Marlon Brando
Tom Cruise
John Cusack
John Travolta
Gene Hackman
Nicolas Cage
Morgan Freeman
Mel Gibson
Robert Redforn
Paul Newman
Denzel Washington
Steve McQueen
Brad Pitt
Sean Connery
Tom Hanks
Al Pacino

What I'm Listening To Right Now: When You Really Love Someone - Alicia Keys - The Diary of Alicia Keys (04:10)]

Monday, November 24

No real reason for posting those lyrics. Just up too late, feel like shit & there is something tugging inside me that I can't really figure out. No, dont worry, maybe its normal to freak out. What is it. What is it?


black tears, dark dreams. beautiful like before, seen as forever. tender kisses like angels wings. one who knows, nobody to see. one who worries, without giving. green eyes, empty inside. sin today, pay tomorrow for my dark dreams... gp



What I'm Listening To Right Now: Push & Pull - Nikka Costa - Everybody Got Their Something (05:26)]
IT'S BEEN SEVEN HOURS AND FIFTEEN DAYS,
SINCE YOU TOOK YOUR LOVE AWAYI GO OUT EVERY NIGHT AND SLEEP ALL DAY
SINCE YOU TOOK YOUR LOVE AWAY
SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT
I CAN SEE WHOM EVER I CHOOSE I CAN EAT MY DINNER IN A FANCY RESTAURANT, BUT
NOTHING, I SAID NOTHING CAN TAKE AWAY THESE BLUES, COS'

NOTHING COMPARES, NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU

IT'S BEEN SO LONELY WITHOUT YOU HERE
LIKE A BIRD WITHOUT A SONG AHHH
NOTHING CAN STOP THESE LONELY TEARS FROM FALLING,TELL ME BABY, WHERE DID I GO WRONG

I CAN PUT MY ARMS AROUND EVERY BOY I SEE
THEY DON'T REMIND ME OF YOU AHHH
I WENT TO THE DOCTORS AND GUESS WHAT HE
TOLD ME, GUESS WHAT HE TOLD ME, HE SAID
GIRL YOU'D BETTER TRY TO HAVE FUN, NO MATTER
WHAT YOU DO, BUT HE'S A FOOL COS'

NOTHING COMPARES, NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU

ALL THE FLOWERS THAT YOU PLANTED MAMA IN THE BACK YARD
ALL DIED AND WITHERED AWAY AHHH
I KNOW THAT LIVING WITH YOU BABY, WAS SOMETIMES HARD
BUT I'M WILLING TO GIVE IT ANOTHER TRY COS'

NOTHING COMPARES, NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU
NOTHING COMPARES, NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU
NOTHING COMPARES, NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU

Saturday, August 16

I love life! I constantly find things to worry about most of the time, but not tonight. Um, and I'm not even drinking anything!

New CEO of the corporation where I work (over 150 plants) has decided that we did so poorly the 1st quarter that it was time to reduce the salary staff by 14% (750 of the 5400 employed). So rumors are that there will be 5 going from our plant (3 layoffs and the 2 job positions that I won but they didn't give me that was frozen), and another 6 effected, such as bumped from a salary job to an hourly position). Nobody thought it would happen fast, but right after the conference call they started escorting the people out of the plant. It was 3 people that probably needed to go, 1 was a pretty good guy, but handled stressful situations poorly. Well, that was yesterday, so I'll probably hear more about it Monday.

My little sister had her baby today at 3:15pm. They induced labor around 8 this morning. Aaron Walker, named after my 2 grandfathers. He weighed in around 7lbs 3ozs, no work on the length yet. Sis is fine but tired. Will keep you updated.

Oh yeah, I got my pyrex bowls in the mail today from eBay, I LOVE them!!! I know, I'm wierd. I also bought a new DVD today, Cradle to Grave with Jet Li and DMX.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Big Boy - Die Happy - The Weight Of The Circumstance (03:18)]

Friday, August 15

Have U perv's missed my Blog about CARNEY CARNIE WILSON - BUFF in the NUDE, NEKKID, with a big DILDO, STRAPPED to her CROTCH and HUMPING a BLOWUP DOLL!

Ha, what hits I shall get with that!

So I'm over at the townhouse finishing up the closets and I run across what was left of my album collection. I left it in my old bed room at my parents house, it was a garage/shop that my Father and I remodeled and it caught a leak and messed up all but these few, maybe 20 or 30. They were molded on like a forth of each album, so I made the executive decision to throw them away. SHIT! It was like amputating my arm! How can I throw away a japanese Foreigner 4 import? Or Night Ranger's greatest hits??? ARG! So, that kindv'e depressed me somewhat.

A lot more has been going on, I will try and get back to talk about it. Hope I can remember it all...

ciao for now~~

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Fall In Love - Nick Lachey - SoulO (04:04)]

Thursday, July 31

I just bought a new phone with txt messaging. CLICK HERE TO SEND ME A MESSAGE

Here is the phone I got.

LG 4400

There is a lot you can do with it, I guess i'm gonna hafta figure it all out when I get a chance.

Went to the new house this afternoon. The carpet is fried, so all that's gonna hafta come up. I'm going to paint my office tomorrow morning. i'm thinking a beige/rust color, something that will match red (Coke) colors.

Hmm, not much else to talk about.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: The Only Way (Is The Wrong Way) - Filter - Tomb Raider II (The Cradle Of (05:15)

Tuesday, July 29

Oh good grief, I have a bunch of pervs comming to my site, lol. Check this out. Here are the searchs that lead people to my site....

With which key words
1. wilson 67
2. playboy 45
3. carnie 35
4. carney 33
5. nude 30
6. pictures 15
7. Wilson 11
8. in 8
9. Carnie 6
10. Playboy 6
11. Carney 6
12. pics 6
13. phillips 3
14. photos 2
15. PLAYBOY 2
16. + 2
17. Nude 2
18. play 2
19. WILSON 2
20. Evanescence 1
21. girls 1
22. CARNEY 1
23. young 1
24. CARnie 1
25. /Carney 1
The rest 11
Total 300

Y'all wanna see Carnie in the buff? Stick around, maybe I'll show ya! lol.....
Yeah of course i'm lazy. And I damn sure don't like to cook. And I guess you could say I don't get cooked for that often. However, we haven't been eating out much the past few weeks. The last thing I remember is maybe Capt.D's a couple of weeks ago. I can't really remember. But anyway, I've been seeing this commercial on TV about getting a DVD from Pizza Hut with a large pizza. Normally I wouldn't really care, but I actually want 3 of the DVD's that they are offering. Going to get "Honeymoon In Vegas" tonight. What the hell, may be having pizza all week!

So, I bought Mr.Wendall a new water bowl, I thought it would work out pretty good because she drinks so damn much. This looks exactly like the one I bought:
4 Mr.Wendall
The only problem is, she started drinking out of it and it happened to gurgle up some air bubbles, and it made that funny little noise that it makes, and it freaked her out, now she refuses to go near it. I got on my hands and knees acting like I was drinking out of it and she will now drink it if I have my hand in it. Hmmm, so I wondered if I covered it up, so she couldn't see the bubbles, and that worked until she heard the noise behind the cardboard I put up. Sooooo, If anyone has any ideas, please let me know.

I'm off Friday & Monday, going to try and move, yippee!

Not much else going on, cept its HOT as hell...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Secret Garden - Bruce Springsteen - Jerry Maguire Soundtrack (04:29)]

Sunday, July 27



I bought the movie "Last Of The Mohicans" from Wal-Mart today and watched it. Man that movie really pumps you up and gets your heart to racing, especially towards the end where they are trying to save the younger sister of Madiline Stowe. Id like to find a good wallpaper of it, if you know where I might be able to find one, let me know.

Kickass Movie

Im still packing stuff. We have boxes everywhere. I HATE moving, but will be glad to have an office finally. I know its going to be filled to the brim with stuff, but i'm a pack rat I hate throwing things away. Plus, I collect too much, but the thought of getting rid of anything troubles me. Oh well, hope I find a happy go between.

Hey, check out these cool .gifs I found of Shania


Well, as you can see, I've actually played with pictures more than i've blogged, but I think they all are pretty good. I wanted to put my wallpaper up, but the host i've found for my pictures only allows 150kb or less, so I'll have to shrink it.

And don't forget to check out the picture of Brad below, I finally got that fixed.

Will talk to you later. And whats up with the Butthead remark Trink, enquiring minds want to know!

What I'm Listening To Right Now: I Drove All Night - Cyndi Lauper - Essential Cyndi Lauper (04:13)]

Friday, July 18

Yes I'm still alive. i've been off this week & have been trying to pack a little bit to get ready for the move. haven't really been doing much, but I was excited to get my Palm in the mail earlier this week. i'm a little concerned that the display is kindve low, i'm gonna check with a few friends at work to see if theirs is the same, if not you can buy new displays pretty cheap. Also got my 545 jeans in that I got on eBay, I bought a pair of jeans the other day that was supposed to replace the 545's and they suck. Well, I guess when I cant find anymore on eBay I'll hafta go to the new kind. Bastards.

Oh, check this picture out and tell me it doesn't look like me! HA! for all y'all Brad pit loving chicks, here I am, come get you sum!



Yeah, I'm playing with pictures and links and stuff. I admit it, i'm lazy when it comes to HTML, maybe that's cause I type with my booger fingers. Anyway, I remember at one point I had this idea of posting my desktop pictures on here. One of my favorite things to do when I get online is find good wallpapers, a favorite site is THEME XP, but I find pics everywhere...

PS- As I try and view my post tonight its acting funny. Dunno why, but it works fine in my preview screen. I'm thinking that my server is acting up cuz it took me forever to upload the pics, so give it time and check back, hopefully it will be OK soon...

What I'm Lookin At Right Now: FortMyers4Ever
What I'm Listening To Right Now: You Can't Take The Honky Tonk - Brooks and Dunn - Red Dirt Road (03:41)

Friday, July 11

Today was great

Possums, Coke & moonlight...



What I'm Listening To Right Now: Kiss You All Over - Exile - Greatest Hits (03:31)]

Tuesday, July 8

I get a call at 11am this morning from Mom. She tells me that shes fallen outside her house and can't get up. My mother is overweight and in very poor health, shes a very strong woman, and insists to work in her garden when she shouldn't, but what can I do? So I go over and my daughter is standing there with Mom, worried, and Mom is sitting in the middle of an azalea bush in an ant bed and is trying to move. So anyway, I cant just grab her hands and pull her up, because it would yank her arm sockets out, I had to get behind her and pick her up underneath her arms, and she is very heavy. For a bit I was worried I wouldn't be able to get her up. Well, we did manage and I got her inside and she had no ant bites and just a few scratches from the bush. I just don't know if i'm ready to take care of my parents, i've always thought of them taking care of me, its a hard thing to deal with.

So, I went to Mike's shop after work. Remember, I traded the $20 necklace for his $800 one? Well, when I get over there he is laughing at me and says the necklace is turning black! lol. I look at it, and yeah, it looks like its changing colors. He tells me he is gonna give it to his daughter and wants me to keep his cause its longer and he wants a shorter one. But I couldn't keep it, knowing how much it cost, so I gave it back and I took the knock-off back, oh well, it was worth $20 to tell the story to everyone. I would've been really pissed if I would've gave the guy the $75 he originally wanted. Mikes new secretary is a girl that I used to know in High School, I had this weird crush on her. Shes a blonde, kindve short, attractive and build very well. So, shes wanting to learn how to DL MP3s off the internet, wants me to come over one day and show her. Ricky (Mike's brother) wants to pay me to show her, lol. I wish I had a secretary to download my MP3s!

Oh, so anyway, I went back over to Moms to check on her and shes making this huge supper. Butter beans with pork seasoning, sweet corn, rice, fried chicken, cornbread and homemade strawberry ice cream. I always eat too much when she does that, how can you not eat your Mothers home cooked meals? So I tell her, OK Mom, were eating tonight, tomorrow is the end, you need to lose weight, and plus she needs to help me! So, we'll see.

So, I'm off work till the 21st. Ron has called and wants me to come up to Atlanta for a few, I might do that. I need to pack some of my stuff, like my DVDs and books, good grief, I didn't realize I had so many books. Do you like to read? I love reading, anything really. i'm going to go over to Moms and cut down the rest of the azaleas tomorrow, so she wont try again. And other than that, no big plans. Oh, I wanna see that Pirates movie with Johnny Depp & Orlando Bloom, and I think there is another movie comming out I wanna see, but I cant think of the name of it now.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Are You Happy Now? - Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper (03:50)]

Monday, July 7

I've had a few interesting thoughts lately. I don't know how I started thinking about them actually. Like, what I used to do when I took girls out on dates, back in the "old" days. It was always Red Lobster and a movie. Maybe if it was with a "loose" girl we would go parking or to a night club, but I never took anyone there that I was really trying to impress. Probably a mistake on my part. I look back now and wonder what would've happened "if". God, i'll never forget taking Teresa out and being so stupid when I took her home. I was actually 3 or 4 years older than her, and had no clue. Then there was Tammy, I screwed that up as well. And the girls that I was taking out, oh man, what was I thinking? I know! lol. Anyway, its fun sometimes to reminisce about things like that.

Went to see fireworks at the local airport, was cool because probably 15 or 20 thousand people came and I knew a shortcut and beat everyone in and out, plus we were closer than anyone else. They were pretty good actually.

Man, have you ever eaten a frozen burrito? They look totally nasty, but taste real good. Wonder how they figured out a way to do that? Reminds me of the old Cheech & Chong bit "Taste It".

Recent eBay purchases: Palm Pilot, Tomb Raider DVD, Levi 545 jeans (they've been discontinued! Bastards!)

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Wouldn't It Be Good - Nik Kershaw - 80s Grand Stars (04:33)]

Wednesday, July 2

Have had 2 visitors here from Brazil, cool huh? I'd love to met people from different places like that. Travel has always intrigued me, I just haven't ever really got out of the states much. The house is a go, Paid the $ down today, possibility that we will begin moving in August. I meant to take pictures, but i'm sure you'll see it soon enough.

Had Beckie's going away party today at work, I think she likes to embarrass me in front of a lot of my "guy" friends at work by calling me "lovesponge". Of course I don't mind her doing it and having them look at me like 'what do I know that I don't?'. I think shes a sweet girl and I hope things work out for her wherever she goes. BTW, I don't know nuttin!

OK, not much else. Will talk later...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Sure Know Something - Kiss - Dynasty (04:01)]

Tuesday, July 1

Oh, I will write about my Wal-Mart experience, since nothing else of interest has been happening. I go to Wal-Mart to buy a few things Saturday and this guy walks up to me as I was getting in my truck and wants to sell me a necklace. I normally blow those people off, but it was a Figaro and i've really been wanting a nice one to match my bracelet. So I ask him how much he wanted for it and he tells me it was $575.00 but needs money to go back to Florida, so will take $100.00 for it. I had that on me, but no way I was going to spend it on a necklace, even if it would've been a good deal. So he says he will let me have it for $75, nope. OK, how about $50? No I don't have that much. Well, how much do you have, he asks me. Um, $25. Hell no. Well, OK, here! So he shows me the receipt he had, and said he put it on a Visa. Sure. So i'm happy, it has "Italy 12K" on it by the clasp, but I have no idea that it is real. So, I have a buddy that works for the sheriffs department & I'm telling him the story and he wants to see the necklace and he decides he likes my necklace better than the one he has. He has a really big Figaro and Its the kind I really wanted. Well, he likes the one I have because its a little smaller and he wants to put a cross on it. So he wants to trade, says he paid close to $600.00 for his. OK, I'll trade, lol. So things went my way in this deal i'm thinking. If there is anything I dislike about the necklace I traded for, it is a tad bit longer that I prefer, I would like for it to show right above where I button my shirt.

What else, lets see. Oh, I know. Since my Carnie Wilson Nude test my site has gotten a lot of traffic, lol. Well, I was searching for it myself, I think shes hot. It actually gives people that want to lose weight incentive, and at least a little comfort in knowing if they bust their ass and lose it, they too can look OK thinner. I always thought she was a cute girl, I didn't really like her hairdo. And didn't she have a mole? Moley Moley Moley! She has some type of corset or something or other across her stomach in all the pictures, and her breasts look a little odd, but nothing un-natural, hell nobody is perfect. I'll put it this way, if I had her body, I would show it off too, but then that's my opinion. I wonder how much plastic surgery shes had. If your interested in seeing the pics email me.

The new Michelle Branch CD is pretty good. Whats the name of that other girl that sings and looks a lot like her? I forget.

Oh, I saw a story on CNN today about downloading MP3s off of P2P sites. They are wanting to start bringing charges against people that are downloading MP3s from them. So, I'm at work talking to a few guys about it & there is this vender there saying, well it is against the law. Oh, he almost got me started! There are a lot of arguments pro and con I guess. I don't think the answer is .99 a song. I would be willing to pay maybe $100 a year or something like that. What I try and tell people is, I buy what I like. If I download a CD that is good, I buy it, if it sucks I'll delete it, eventually, maybe. Well, we'll see what happens, should be interesting.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Are You Happy Now? - Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper (03:50)]

Monday, June 23

Hmmmmm, I feel very un-creative today. I went and saw "The Hulk" yesterday, maybe that's what did it to me. Um, or maybe it was the 8 Red Dawg's I drank, who knows. Actually it could've been the mosquito spray that Tim was fogging me with, or maybe the tequilla?

Went to Books-A-Million" to buy Kay a copy of the new Harry Potter book and they were sold out, but they did have the issue of Maxim with Shania on the cover, so screw Harry!

Oh man, you need to check out The Osbournes, the episode that Ozzy gets high at the dentists office, lol, he is just not right at all. Now they are trying to kill all the fleas in their house, and Christina Aguilera now has a thing for Jack, I think just because shes trying to get next to Kelly. Oh shit, Kelly just pierced her nose and Sharon is crying. Man, I wish I had those problems! I keep thinking i'm going to win the lottery, but I don't even fuckin play it...

Ah, a new job is posted at the plant. Becky is leaving the MIS department, and there will be an opening there. Oh of course I won the Environmental Coordinators position, maybe even have a pretty good chance at this one, but will I actually get my ass in that office? Hell no, BASTARDS! Check this out:

POSITION DESCRIPTION: (Key duties/responsibilities) Provide support to clients on database related issues, PC users, shopfloor users and CMI. This position will be oriented toward the completion of projects to deliver information to internal and external customers. Maintain SQL Server databases and ensure they are configured for peak performance. Install and configure SQL Server and troubleshoot issues. Administration of database servers, including creating/deleting, startup/shutdown, and database backup/recovery. Research, communicate and implement database enhancements as needed. Maintain working knowledge of existing technical environment, including application development, network and desktop strategies, and electronic mail.
Have a working knowledge of Windows NT Networking, TCP/IP, WINS, LAN and DNS. Identify and initiate resolutions to client issues associated with office automation equipment, hardware and software and Database related issues (Blackhawk Shopfloor/Peergroup). Configuration, installation, implementation and distribution of office automation equipment. (um does Becky do all of this???)

When I interview, I'll say, I can crack XP & Autocad plus DL all the Mpegs & MP3's you want! Hey I know, Networking cliff notes!

Till next time....

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Kyrie - Mr Mister - The Best Of (04:27)]

Thursday, June 19

I just found out Cher is 56, wow. See toldja I dig older chicks!
Went and looked at furniture last night, going again tonight. Need a dining room suit and a new bedroom suit. They had leather stuff, but I like the overstuffed-brown-bomber-jacket look, they only had tight white, didn't like that. I wanna big recliner!

Not a whole lot to talk about. Ah, Becky at work turned in her 2-week notice, she called me today and told me, hmmm, an opening in the MIS department, finally, my luck, they will probably not fill it. We'll see.

gbye for now...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Think Twice - Eve 6 - Its All In Your Head (03:44)]

Monday, June 16

Hi...

My eyes hurt. I didnt work 12 hours today, or even 13. I had to go to Mom & Dads house yesterday and check on their fish pond, they are having problems with the nitrates in it. Two of the fish were almost dead, I had to scoop them out and throw them in the woods. Man I hate that, I mean, I look at them sucking air and I feel so much pity and Im thinking, damn its just a damn gold fish, why do I feel this way?

What else. Kindve lonely.

Oh, I watched another Alien movie! Cool. I don't give a damn what anyone says they are great (except maybe the 3rd one).

Oh, Carnie Wilson. Nude in Playboy next month. I cant wait! I always thought she was cute, but she does look good having lost the weight. A lot of guys are turned off by the whole weight issue. Not me, I love the inner beauty, and always have. I guess I always will.

Wanna try and see if my hits go up, just a trial here:

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What I'm Listening To Right Now: Don't You Love Me Anymore - Joe Cocker - The Essential (04:11)]

Tuesday, June 10

Oh shit, I just found out today that I gotta work 12hrs the rest of the week~! SHIT.

Cant wait....Wow, is it real??????????

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Oh Girl - Paul Young - The Essential (03:37)]

Monday, June 9

Hmm, Got my "ALIEN" DVD's from eBay in the mail today & watched the 1st one tonight. I forgot how scary some parts were. Yeah, yeah - the visuals aren't up to todays standards, but it was a very good flick. Cant wait to watch the rest.

I have a bitch about Windows Media Player 9. I like the program, I use it over Winamp & Sonique, as well as MusicMatch (and I actually paid for that one!). But, back to WMP9, whenever I try to search for songs with it on the internet, sometimes it decides it will search, and other times it sits there and doesn't do anything. I know its not because the information isn't available, because if I shut down and restart, sometimes it'll find it. Little stuff like that bugs me. Oh well.

Found out today that the likelihood that we'll be getting the house Sep.1st is pretty certain. I will take some digital pictures and post them. I went up in the driveway to check out the back deck yesterday and I noticed that the jaquzzi was gone, damn! Oh well, at least I will have my own room for an office! Oh hell yeah....!

Not much else to talk about, wish we could've talked tonight, but I do understand. I have a link for you to check out =o) YEAH BABY!

What I'm Listening To Right Now: I Was Made For Loving You - Kiss - (04:28)]

Thursday, June 5

Addicted to Rise of Nations & Neverwinter Nights now, I guess thats a good thing, maybe???

No interesting thoughts to speak of. Found a great site, I'm thinking of emailing this girl and asking her to help design my tat, take a look at it and let me know what you think.

Zindy.Zone.dk

Going to watch my movie, my Aliens DVDs havent arrived yet, bummer...

Hi babe, love you =0)

(even when you fuss at me!)

What I'm Listening To Right Now: My Tourniquet - Evanescence - Not For Your Ears (03:49)]

Wednesday, June 4

Hi, downloaded a lot of CDs tonight,

Lonestar - Greatest Hits
Evanescence - Not For Your Ears (19 Tracks, some remixes & new songs)
Steely Dan - Everything Must Go
Sonique - Born To Be Free

Bought 4 DVDs tonight, I got the new "Blackhawk Down" 3 disc special edition. and grabbed 3 DVDs out of the clearence bin, "Celtic Pride", "Red Heat", & "Iron Eagle" all for $5 each.

Um, not much else to say...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Smile - Lonestar - Greatest Hits (03:35)]

Tuesday, June 3

Hey, I'm alive and I think everything is OK! Cool...

Talk soon...

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Lincoln Avenue - Train - My Private Nation (03:36)]

Saturday, May 24

Hmm, long time since my last BLOG, sorry. Guess I have a lot to talk about so I will begin, here goes...

1st of all blogspot is sucking ass lately! Everytime you try to go into a BLOG hosted by them it times out, or takes forever loading. Because of that I decided to start searching for somewhere else to host my BLOG. Then I thought, hey I'm with Bellsouth, shouldn't I have free space with my account with them? Well it took me about 2 hours to contact them, find it, and then find out its a total pain in the ass to use it. Long story. I go to Freeserver.com and they don't support my version of Frontpage. Screw it to hell I say. I will continue to look, but its been so long since i've done this webpage crap i've forgotten more than I probably learned.

OK, this morning I slept in a bit because I took a couple of vacation days, I get up and just didn't feel too hot. I sit at the computer a bit to play a little Diablo2 (Starting a new necromancer dude, which is pretty cool), and then watch a little TV. I have this pain flaring up in the lower portion of my back, kindve like the pain you have after you pass out drunk and wake up having to pee really bad. But going to the bathroom didn't help it at all. Sitting there, worried that it may be another kidney stone, and praying it isn't - because that hurt like a bastard. I go take a long hot shower, that's what I always do whenever i'm sick, whether its a flu or a hangover, well that didn't work either. I lay down upstairs and try to watch a DVD up there and I couldn't get comfortable and it wasn't working, just getting worse. So, i'm thinking I should go ahead and go to the Dr.s office to get some drugs before they close for the weekend, and just my luck they closed at noon, screwed. I called Cathy and asked her to take me to the emergency room, because now I'm really hurting and I need drugs fast. I sit down and put on my socks and shoes and when I stand up I notice there isn't any more pain. Now i'm feeling like a jerk, what could it have been? Maybe a pulled muscle that worked itself out, or maybe even gas, what a stud I am huh???

Went to the Cracker Barrel to eat dinner, had fried shimp, I felt 10lbs being added to my big butt as I ate. Now even splurge meals are making me feel bad, I guess that's a good thing. After eating went to Circuit City, I love looking around in there. They have thousands of different DVDs and no "Alien", whats up with that? Am I wrong but isn't that one of the best scifi movies ever made? Oh well, I guess I'll have to get it on eBay. After Circuit City we go to the 9:40pm movie to see "Matrix - Reloaded". It is rated "R" so Kay has to go to another movie, and that is just the beginning of our problems for the night. Kalynn, she is almost 13 and is totally afraid to do anything by herself, I blame myself & Cathy for that. When I was her age I was begging to go to the movie by myself. She knew what the situation was going to be when we left the house to go, we were going to leave her with Mom & Dad but she begged to come, saying she would watch another movie. When we got there, she said there was too many teenagers there and was afraid. Cathy finally got her to realize she is being silly and it will be OK to go to see her movie while we go to the Matrix. As we finally get in, our theater is filling up fast, and Cathy is bringing Kay in to where we are going to sit, i'm like, why is she coming in here? And Cathy is freaking out, telling me she just wants her to see where we are sitting, I can't believe it. So she leaves with her and comes back, I felt that it was kindve silly doing all of that, just point her in the direction of her movie and tell her when its over to wait on us in the lobby, but noooooo. So right at the end of our movie, here she comes walking in, and proceeds to stand in the isle right next to where we are sitting, I ask her what she needs and She tells me that her movie is over, so I said, go out and wait in the lobby or hall. Good grief. So about 10 minutes later, after missing about 5 minutes of the ending, we go out and shes not in the hall, and the lobby is roped off, Cathy is freaking and i'm just totally frustrated. I didn't make a big deal out of it, but I just don't think that situation was handled correctly. I mean, if we expect for her to be able to do anything by herself, we have to trust her to do things without 100% parental guidance. So I have a major headache, and nobody is talking to me, but for the record, I didn't say anything rude or ugly to either of them.

When we were leaving Circuit City I see this girl running up to me with a big smile, and I realize who it is. Pam Hendley. Wow, I had just been talking about her, what are the chances of seeing her. So She runs up and jumps up on me, and gives me this huge hug. The cool thing about the hug is, as were hugging, she squeezes right in the middle of the hug, like its just between us, and nobody else will know about it. Wow. So we back apart and there is this awkward silence as her husband is standing there looking at me, and Cathy and Kalynn is standing there wondering whats going to happen next. I'm sure Kalynn had no clue who it was, but Cathy knew her, just had forgotten her name, although Cathy never knew her when we ran together. Pam says, "Hi!" looking at Kalynn, and says "Your name is Katie (or something funny like that) isn't it?" lol, well, I thought it was a pretty good guess since she probably has only seen her once or twice when she was a little baby. She says they had been at Logans eating and had just finished, i'm wondering now if I even said anything, lol, I was just in shock. I was 22 and had a freshman crush on her. It is a long story but I still get tongue tied whenever I see her. She is looking older now, but still very pretty, I guess that's what 20 years does to you, I wonder what she thinks about me, I used to wear my hair very short and spiked and was thin the last time she saw me. When we worked at Piggly Wiggly together she was a little overweight, but carried it very well, and had one of those headfulls of hair, you know, 80's style. What I remember most about her? She was with me when I reached my goal and never let me think I couldn't make it. She was always my friend and always was on my side. She was there for me when Tammy broke my heart. She had the bluest eyes I had ever seen, and untill maybe a couple of years ago, maybe the prettiest eyes I thought I would ever see. We drank hunch-punch and smoked pot together. She would always say, Bubba don't listen to that, it always gets you too mellow. Yeah, I was Bubba back then, and she was the girl in my life for a couple of years. Not the kind that you marry or settle down with, but the kind you always remember and wonder if... What if...

-I can't think of anything but you at the weirdest times, like picking apples at the store, or listening to music when I ride.

The song that always made me "Mellow": Thru' With The Two Step - Robert Plant - The Principle of Moments (05:32)]

Thursday, May 22

-If I hear a great song, I think of you.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: When I Lost You (Radio Version) - Sarah Whatmore (03:26)]
Hi.

Haven't Blogged in a while. I noticed in Bren's Blog that I made her prose, and the funny thing is, I totally agree with her. I know I'm a paranoid bastard. I'm jealous, paranoid & have a fucked up ideal of self conscience. I can't argue that I'm not, because of anyone I know I am. At times, just sometimes, these traits can be viewed as good, but when overlyused, they can become just the opposite. Ive worn my badge of honor with my head down and my tail between my legs. No, not just one person has told me, but many. My reputation forgoes me. When I "freak out", lecture, over analyse, preach, get on my soap box, too cocky or judge another. You see, I will tell you a secret about myself. The only reason I'm like this is because I was so timid in school, my Mother would tell me, your better than anyone else in this world. I would tell her, but Mom they look better or they have nicer clothes or they have more friends. Mom would tell me that that's not what matters but whats inside, and being a good person is what matters, not what you wear. I would sit back and watch them. I would see them go along with something they wouldn't actually want to do because they wanted to fit in, or they wanted to be with the "in crowd" and I thought I understood. I could be fat or uncool and still be happy with myself. But when you fall in love, or you get something that you can't command, your always worrying that it will leave you, not of your choosing. I do over analyse because Im unsure of myself, I battle with myself more than the ones that think I battle them. When I can't understand I ask questions, and if they cant answer them, I ask myself and try to put myself in their position. And if I don't fit, I automatically think its wrong, I feel like I'm unwavering yeah heardheaded. I do have the ability to change, I'm not a old dog, you can teach me new tricks. I have been told that my greatest asset is my tenderness and thoughtfulness, and if they only knew, that comes from my own self assurance, or lack of. Im sorry guys, I know I have the problems, I guess that's a first step.

The sweetest cordial we receive, at last, Is conscience of our virtuous actions past. - Denham.

Im thinking I will move my BLOG. Blogspot is constantly down, and I hate the add on the top. I think I have free webspace with Bellsouth, I shall check.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Blinded - Third Eye Blind - Out Of The Vein (04:22)]

Monday, May 19

Everything is OK now. Actually everything is perfect...

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life


What I'm Listening To Right Now: Thank You (Album Version) - Dido - Total Girls 2 (03:37)]
Over the last 3 nights I've downloaded 16 CDs. Some are really good, some really suck. My point exactly as to why you shouldn't run out and waste $20 on crap.

Ah my favorite subject, CHAT ROOMS! What a bunch of losers. This is my BLOG and my opinion and I guess if you don't like reading it, you can always hit the big "X" button up there on your tool bar. I could go into my typical rant and really slam the lowlifes in them, but instead I will let them do it for themselves. Take a look:

horny_hot_hard_dick - Marital Status: No Answer - Age: 21
just_a_mexican_in_texas - Marital Status: No Answer - Age: 29 - Occupation: A good one
meatybone712000
mr_puff_in_stuff
southern_charmer02 - Hobbies: loving my sweet lady,making her happy,sharing both male and female with her.
uk_sally19 - Age: 19 - Hobbies: Having fun - parties/clubbing/sucking cock
krazy_lil_bytch_wantin_2_69 - Location: hopefully in ur bed - Age: 20
tasty4u692003
wild_julie2001 - Age: 19 - Occupation: student
justasmuchassastits60
filly_thai - Age: 19 - Hobbies: Hi Guys, hope you enjoy my profile, more photos of me on my webpage:)
one_hot_fine_babe: hi attractive SF, anyone want to chat?
celliott237: southern can i get an invite to lick please
rossoelvis: yeah the invisable lick is great!!!!!!!!!!!
funman6678: lick can i see your bottom half please ?
peoriayounghunggay - Occupation: sucking cocks getting blowjobs from men
bed_halley - Marital Status: Single And Looking - Age: 19
wuvable_snugable_fozybear - Age: 43
ecko_girl2003 - Hobbies: party and hang out with friends drinking - Age: 18
hunglikehorse32
eat_meat4u
master_4_fem_slave - Hobbies: Teaching with a firm hand the methods to please a man/woman. Understanding the need to be shown the way.

Ah, I've been there and done that, and yes I "over analize" it, but its not because I think I'm better than hunglikehorse32, its because I thought you were. So, do it, have fun and I won't tell you to stop. What a great way to make myself feel better about myself. There is nothing in none of those places that I want, need or want to be associated with. Have fun.

Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Nothing compares 2 U - Sinead o' Connor - Va - If Tomorrow Never Comes (05:09)]


-Everytime I see a picture of you I smile, no matter what.
Maybe one damn day, we will get this right!!

Sunday, May 18

Good morning. it's 6:03am here and something smells so good here, its almost seductive, kind've like a blueberry muffin smell. Anyway...

I left going to Tim's house around 4:00pm. As soon as I got off work I came home and showered & changed. I checked the MP3 site and found that Staind, Third Eye Blind, Mya & Sugar Ray had new CDs out, so I downloaded those quickly. I burnt Travis a copy of Third Eye Blind to take to him (Tim's son). Riding out there was so great, I decided not to pull my hair back, the weather was wonderfull, I had a great CD to listen to, my sunglasses made me look cool (I thought) & I heard her voice just a couple of hours before. When I get to the driveway Tims calling to ask if I was going to come, maybe he was as anxious as I was to drink. John wasn't able to come because he had a trip to Illinois, Martha said since he was going to be gone for 3 days starting tomorrow he needed to stay home, which I totally understand. If you knew John, you would like him, I really do. When I went in I got a nice cold Bud Light and poured it in a glass and drank it as quickly as possible, you can't imagine how good it tasted, and I don't really like the taste of beer. We drank a few more, fogged out in the yard and watched the basketball game. After that we went outside and lit the bonfire and I did get a couple of pictures of that, I will post them later this afternoon if I get back on here. I think I left out drinking a few beers and margaritas in describing what we did, yeah it was just me & Tim but sometimes its better for only 2 guys to hang out. Oh yeah, I smoked a really big cigar too, that was fun, gave me the coolest buzz. What was so awesome was that the weather was so threatening and lighting was flashing in the distance while our fire was sending sparks to the sky, it was so surreal. I looked into the embers and my mind raced and thoughts came pouring in from every direction. It started to rain around (i'm guessing) midnight, thats when we came in and watched "The Man Show" on comedy central. Tim cooked a pizza and I had 2 slices, he cooked another but I couldnt eat anymore, the first got me sick actually. getting back to "The Man Show" I must tell you, i'm just not one of those kind of men, I mean I love to look at a pretty woman and I love to do the male bonding thing, but those guys are just male chauvinist pigs. Of course I acted like I really thought it was cool while I was there, I couldn't mess up my own male bonding experience! Anyway, I wake up at 5:00am on the leather sectional sofa, the TV is on, all the lights are out and everybody is asleep. I realized my last pair of contacts are in and my eyes feel like the Shahara desert, so I take those out, put my shoes on and quietly slip out of the house coming home, its 5:15am. That was my night, nothing special, but a good time with nice people & a definite needed distraction. A few things are bothering me though, I called a phone number today that started with 666, and a black cat ran right out in front of me on the way home, I didn't really think I was that superstitious, but those 2 things freak me out a little.

I talked to her today, or I guess it was yesterday now, 20 hours ago. You know, she did and still does deserve all the feelings I still feel for her, but I remembered why things were so difficult for me when we were talking. She never liked the pedestal I put her on, she always said she was unworthy. I guess nobody is worthy, nobody is perfect, and that's what I always tried to make her understand all the time. I wanted her to see that for me she was, and we could be perfect like that. The thought of her seeing the things I know is there now, depresses me. Her innocence was what I admired and so loved about her, in those places and with those people she has now, there is none. I don't hate her now, i'm not mad because shes chosen that over me, I just miss her. So, it will never be the same again, to me that's so very sad, it makes me hurt inside like i've never hurt before, it makes my eyes water knowing I cant have the closeness I had with her. I don't miss the worrying & the deception, your best friend isn't supposed to lie to you, that's the rule. I guess in the long run, I wasn't as fun to her as her other adult friends, I accept the fact that I couldn't give her what she wanted or needed, but I can't accept that the ones she talks to now can. Can they?

So now, its 6:39am, its grey outside, the ground and roads are wet with the storms memory, I have no headache amazingly, and I know that i'm changing. Its a feeling like when you know there is no Santa, Christmas just isnt ever the same again. I wonder if my life will be now...

-I couldn't wait to get home to talk to you

I'm going to bed now.

We're flying above it all
Hold my hand, don't let me fall
You've such amazing grace
I've never felt this way...

Show me heaven
Cover me
Leave me breathless
Show me heaven please


What I'm Listening To Right Now: Show me heaven - Maria McKee - Va - If Tomorrow Never Comes (03:46)]


Saturday, May 17

Have had a lot of irate employee's today, sad how silly somethings seem to me. Why can't people all get along and act like adults.

I can actually feel a difference in my clothes today, I really think the work-outs are going to help, you were right about that Brenda. Didn't matter how much I dieted, the weight just wouldnt come off untill I started to move my big butt, now it is, but I must say I'm sore!

It was so good hearing your voice today. Kindve like my splurge meal on Saturday nights, you dont know how good pizza is until you havent eaten it in 2 weeks. Your my pizza.

I really don't want to spend the night at Tim's tonight, but I wont drive while I'm drunk, so if I drink too much he'll just have to snuggle up with me. I may take my camera and take a few pictures to post. May be fun.

Horse-shoes, Margaritas, deer sausage and steak, what could be better? I know...

-I get chills watching mushy movies because I think of you.

Song of the Day: Robbie Williams - Angels (I think this has already been a song of the day here, sorry but I happen to like it)

Friday, May 16

Alone for the weekend.

Tim invited me out for a Margarita party, I will probably go, I need to get out.

I emailed you last night. I wonder if I did the right thing. As usual, probably not.

Gnite...

Good Man
If you ever find a way to forgive me
If you ever find a way to put this all to rest
Because I am hanging on your dress now like a little boy
When all that you wanted, all that you wanted
Was a good man

Right in the middle of another big fight
Boom back another one tonight
Blood never forgets but who protects the memories from when we bleed each other from the vein

And if you ever find a way to make this interesting
If I ever find a way to stop disintegrating
Into pieces that I was, that you destroy
When all that you wanted, all that you wanted
Was a good man




What I'm Listening To Right Now: Good Man - Third Eye Blind - Out Of The Vein (09:22)]

Thursday, May 15

She was in POGO again this afternoon, about 4:30pm or so. Kind've strange, she normally didn't play at that time of day. It had gotten to where I didn't know her habits anymore. I actually went in the same room she was in, it was full I had to hit refresh 30 or 40 times before there was an opening. I had made up my mind I was going to say hi to her. When I finally got in and saw what table she was on, she was playing a bot, but I couldn't get in to talk to her because the table was locked. I remember when we would play spades or hearts online together, I would make a complete idiot out of myself to make her laugh. I loved making her happy, but in the end I couldn't. I'm sorry...

You, you are the one.
You're all I've been thinking about,
and I, I'd give it all away,
if only you were here beside me.
For one moment, you're so close, I can feel you breathe.
For one moment, now you're all I know that I need.

Just when I thought you were there to depend on.
Don't you know that I've tried everything I know to do.
I would live or die for you.
I just want to know why, cause.
I've got a lot to learn about love.
Oh yeah, the only girl I care about it gone, she's gone.
Teach me about love

And now, now that you're gone.
I'm here with my memories and now I'm alone.
You, you can't see, the love I'm feeling for you.
I can't let this moment slip away,
Don't you know that every single time I feel this way.
Every time I turn away someone's saying goodbye


What I'm Listening To Right Now: I've Got a Lot to Learn About Love - The Storm - The Storm (04:25)]

Wednesday, May 14

I've had this urge the past few days to call. Just to hear you say hello. I just wonder if its as hard for you, as it is me.

But that probably isn't the reason. i've thought about this a lot, and I know why I miss you so much. Its because you were my best friend. We talked everyday for 3 years. I remember times we would talk for 6 or 7 hours straight. We wouldn't even have anything to talk about and we would just listen to each other breath. Then it wasn't about me freaking out about you doing something, we had each other. You see, we were both in relationships that sucked, and as wrong as it may seem now, we found comfort in each other. Without you now, I feel lost. SHIT

So now your in POGO. Why I wonder? maybe you could've changed your name, but you didn't. I deleted your name from my ICQ, because I know if I saw you online I would send you a message, sometimes I go there waiting for a message that wont come. I wonder why I didn't delete your name from POGO, I guess I know why, everyone knows why. I still love you. Yeah, you came to me before, but now you wont, because either you think its best for me that you don't, or you don't want to be weak.

So I want to call to here you say hello. I want to hear my friend again. I miss her.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Lightning Crashes - Live - Heaven (CDM) (05:25)]


Oh now feel it comin' back again
like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
forces pullin' from the center of the Earth again
I can feel it
Oh why, oh why, oh why
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
this moment she's been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue colored iris, presents the circle
and puts the glory out to hide, hide

Monday, May 12

I'm here. I've read that if you have a limb amputated that you will still feel it, when its gone. I believe that.

I wonder if she ever thinks of me.

I wish this would stop....

Will it ever?

What I'm Listening To Right Now: I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden - Affirmation (04:12)]

Friday, May 9

OK, I won't force more pictures down your throat tonight. I showed the pic to a few co-wokers today, now keep in mind I didnt want that "exact" piture, but the feel. A couple of guys liked it, the only two girls I showed it to said no way. They said it put across the wrong idea, hmmm, now I'm really thinking if a pin-up girl tat is smart on my part. I mean, its what i've always wanted, but when Im 80 will it still be OK? God just get the damn thing and quit questioning myself & overthinking it!

Burning CDs and watching Star Search, lets vote Naomi off! And to think I love Ashlee

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Bleed to Love Her - Fleetwood Mac - Say You Will (04:09)]

Thursday, May 8

Was watching Oprah tonight and she had Emeril on, I like that guy. You know, he is the chef that goes "BAM!" when he adds stuff to his dishes. So, I thought it would be a neat idea to let you know what type of dishes we eat down here in Southwest Georgia; If you want any of the recipes, just email me, I'll be glad to hook you up.

Cornbread with melted butter covered with field peas and sweet tomato pickles
Fried porkchops or cubed steak with flour gravy and sauteed onions
Homemade potato salad
Biscuits made from scratch & sweet ice tea
Macaroni & cheese casserole
Sweet potato souffle
Homemade peach ice cream or fresh picked strawberries & cream on pound cake


Funny Sites: Dogs In Cars - Homestar Runner

I miss Gracie & Rosie

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Calling All Angels - Train - My Private Nation (03:49)]

Wednesday, May 7

OK, I guess i'm gonna get busy and play with this a bit and take advantage of this new program.

What Do You Think
A tattoo of similar design is what I'd like.


If your interested, this is the bike I want. Of course I want a black one totally tricked out, lottsa chrome and leather.
FatBoy


Well, I bought a new blender today and made a bananas smoothie, was pretty good. Didn't eat enough today, only oatmeal, a 6"sub and the smoothie. Feel weak and tired, think I'm going to bed... Gnite.

What I'm Listening To Right Now: Why Do I Feel So Sad - Alicia Keys - songs in A minor (04:26)]
Oh, I see how the music thing works now, It takes the song your listening to and displays the info, pretty slick huh?

[Song Of The Day: Lets Stay Together - Al Green (03:20)]
OK heres what the new program does - Spell Check - Bold - Italic - Underline- Strike - Color - Font - Link To This Program


TITLE OF PICVIPER PICTURE

CENTER CENTER CENTER CENTER CENTER

LEFT LEFT LEFT LEFT LEFT

RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT

Hmmmmm, whats the music thing?

Monday, May 5

Actually a little good news tonight. It's 11:15pm and i'm fixen to go to bed (yes you guessed correctly I live in Georgia). Back to the good news, I found my sunglasses, my heart almost did a flip when I saw them. And where were they? Only in the truck glove compartment that I had already searched 2 times, oh well, i'm happy. The next good news is that I just finished reformatting my HD and all seems to be OK, but not only that POGO now works, FINALLY! I had grown addicted to popping them damn balloons. So, as you can see, good news in my life is POGO working, oh man.

I didn't exercise today, my plans were to start today, but people were at my house and it screwed my PLANS up. DAMN. Tomorrow...

I've thought about last nights post today alot. Trink asked if I had found it somewhere else. Let me tell you this funny story: Once upon a time I sent someone a poem I found on the net, now I had wrote many MANY poems and sent in the past, this was a fluke. Of course I said I wrote it, because I wanted them to think it was how I felt inside. Actually it was how I felt inside, but someone else had already written it so I figured WTF, right? Wrong. Basically I know I couldve written a better one, but for some stupid reason I elected to say I had written this one. Oh, I changed a few words, and a couple of sentences, but it was by no means mine. So to cut to the chase, the person I sent it to ask me if I wrote it, and I could tell by their voice that something wasnt right, I asked why they would ask if I wrote it, I don't think I ever lied and said I did, but I led them to believe I did. Now, if you were that other person, you would then question my loyalty, character & morals, as I do to myself just thinking about it. So there you have it, I was a thief and a liar about a poem, that was telling someone my feelings for them. How sad. Ah, It was like when I was 11 and was caught stealing, I learned a valuable lesson, and that day taught me one. Not that by some freak of nature that someone reads the exact same poem that I lifted from a site out of millions of poems out there, but you should not lie. Not about your feelings to someone and certainly not about something so simple as a poem. Ive learned that it doesnt matter if youve written it or not, its the thought that counts. If you ever read this, I'm sorry for that, and sorry I dont think is ever enough. I was wrong, and to this day I think of it. But Trink, I wrote the BLOG last night, that I promise. The scarey thing is, I think like that constantly, never-ending. I'm afraid to write like that sometimes because I'm afraid people will think I'm weird or whatever. I just can't cut it off.

Well, 5:00am comes early so I shall hit the sack. I had a glass of gin and cranberry juice to help me sleep, I hope it works. Nights are long when you can't forget.

I miss carmel-apple suckers & pepperjack cheese

Song Of The Day: Unchained Melody - Righteous Brothers

Sunday, May 4

I'm smarted than they are. I look at them in contempt as they calculate and figure and agree they are right. I know the words they seek and I know the paramount choice. But I stay quiet. I'm born again from the ones that I consider worthy. I am their spirit. Though them I feel and create and pattern my actions. My conscious is my virtue, my patience is never compromising. Without them I am nothing, without them there is no me. I touch and feel, like no other, my passion spreads through my fingertips without any end. Yes, they have given me my strength. I consume you with my never-ending love. Yes, I know I’m worthy of the love that I deserve, because I give without asking for it in return. I know in the end I shall reveal who I truly am like the rising phoenix from the ashes. And my transformation shall shock and dismay those that looked down on me and ignored my brilliance. For my life, though only a speck in time will be marked by the greatness I feel inside. And the feelings I have for those I give my love to, will only grow stronger, because it is real and it’s nurtured every day. Still my heart, because I know what I saw them think about me, the spirit cannot be so easily seen. Yes, I too know what I see in the mirror; to them what is not seen. Oh - The joy that will free me and unlock the universe to my soul. I shall overcome the petty incompetence that troubles me. No food or person shall rule my world, my personal space, my being. Yes, they are wrong. My choices are essential, my value is immeasurable, my life is electric, and my mind is grand – I shall return & overcome. My path, mind over matter. My future…Yes, my potential is what I decide, not you or your misguided opinion of me.

You see what I really feel inside, damn I scare myself sometimes…

I feel, I hurt, I want, I know, I am

Song Of The Day: Annie Lennox - Why
OK, why is my centering command not doing right in the last few posts? I had both tags in the right spot, see - shit like that pisses me right off. Wow, guess you can tell I'm in one of those moods huh? Sorry...Gnite
Tonight was different, but not really. Went to Tim's house to drink a couple of beers, my boss. Another co-worker was there, John, I get along with both really well. We drank a couple and played some horse-shoes, I beat John but Tim beat me. Watched "The Transporter" with Tim, its supposed to be the next "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" (just kidding). John and his wife Martha had to leave early, she's from Mexico and Saturday nights is her night to call home for hours. I usually get totally blasted when I go over there, just wasnt in the mood.

Been really wet and stormy here the past couple of days. I love the rain and thunder. I wonder where ever you may be reading this from if you have mosquitoes. They were out in force tonight and about carried me away, they were biting so much. I've, for some reason, always attracted them more than other people, maybe they think i'm sweet or something, who knows...

Have you ever looked at a picture of a lighthouse? Have you ever wondered how many waves wash ashore, underneth its view. I used to never think of them, or see thier beauty until maybe a couple of years ago. Now, well thats another story...

Lighthouse

Sometimes my life is dark, empty, and foreboding
Like a ship in the night out at sea
But you are there for me
You are the tower of strength that I rely on.

Sometimes I'm sad and alone
Like the captain at the wheel, wanting to be home
But you are there for me
You shine your bright light for me to reach out to

Sometimes I'm confused, not sure what to do
Like the seaman who looses his way in the fog
But you are there for me
Your voice tells me the right direction.

Sometimes life is as rough as the uncaring sea
It causes panic, frustration, and despair
But you are there for me
A quiet entity on the edge of a rugged cliff.

You are my Beacon, My Lighthouse...Unknown


I wish I had something interesting to talk about tonight, I feel like talking to someone, about anything, or maybe just typing into the night. I feel lonely right now, its dark and my mood is not what it normally is, or used to be. I kind've feel like talking about personal things here is a bore to the average reader, and I think I worry what people think too much to act on my own terms. I should just make myself happy, like others I know, and not give a fuck about what I say or do, or who's feelings it happens to hurt.

Talked to Steve today, first time in a good while. Were talking about doing something soon, that would be nice. David and I are planning our bike trip, and it should be fun, its going to be fun as long away as its going to be and all the planning thats going into it. Havent talked to Ron in some time now, maybe a couple of weeks, miss him.

Enjoyed talking to you, wish you were here...

Song Of The Day: REO Speedwagon - Keep On Loving You

Friday, May 2

I miss my Viper35 screen name. When I achieve my goal and buy my harley I'm going to buy a black leather vest and have a red viper on the back, kindve like huge eyes and large fangs, maybe on top "VIPER 35" underneath "DON'T TREAD ON ME". Yeah thats cool. Getting closer to my tat design, maybe another week.

Something I want to stop thinking about, but can't - M&M's

Song Of The Day: Collective Soul - Why Pt. 2

In the air I'm tasting your perfection
Forgive me dear for my misdirection
As I crawl beneath this torture you adore
I fall face to face with my scars you've ignored

So tell me why it don't feel the same
Tell me why I've got to feel this way
Yeah you leave, you're gone
And I'm left here with the blame
So tell me why it don't feel the same

All my props I swear they were in order
Even with the warnings of your thunder
Now I pause to let my silence scream tonight
Awhile you roam like a serpent satellite



Thursday, May 1

I'm not even gonna correct the spelling there, these BLOG Bastards need a spell-checker dammit!
OK, its Thursday, I officially changed my lifestyle on Moday. Hmmm, so hows it going? OK I guess, except that I'm hungry as hell! I think thats a good sign. I had a working lunch today and had a steak and baked potato (no butter) and a roll, have just been drinking water. So I dont think thats too bad, it did feel me up for a while, lol. You know what they say, you cant make your body feel like its starving itself or your motabloism will solw way down and the weight will just stay! ARGH!

I really don't think people like ready about fat people looseing wieght, but who knows...

I got the DVDs from eBay yesterday, and watched both. The "Shaolin Soccer" was pretty good, but the other one "Returner" was far better. I recommend it to guys that like "MAN MOVIES!".

For anybody that builds thier own PC's out there, DONT buy a Audigy card for XP unless its the Audigy 2, this thing is constantly crashing my system.

"You can't say that" makes me think of you...

Song of the day: Blessid Union Of Souls - Standing At The Edge Of The Earth

Tuesday, April 29

Oh man, you gotta see this! ---> Sponge Sex

Don't know whats up with my Shout-out dew-hicky, I guess its down.

Well, I mentioned Zorp in my post yesterday and damed if that didnt pull her chain. Got a full novel, I must do that more often. BTW Zorpis, I'm printing that out to take to work with me! lol

Still have that damn headache, still not eating fat-people-food, spirit's still down...

Song Of The Day: What's This Life For? - Creed

Monday, April 28

I, I can't read the future but I still wanna hold you close
Right now, I need that from you
So give me the morning
Sharing another day with you is all that I want to know
And baby, I, I've tried to forget you
But the light of your eyes still shines, you shine like an angel
A spirit that won't let me go
And I, I didn't wanna tell you things I didn't wanna know myself
I was afraid to show
But you, you gave me a reason, a reason to face the truth, oh yes you did
To face the truth, face the truth, face the truth
And baby, I, I've tried to forget you
But the light of your eyes stil shines, you shine like an angel
A spirit that won't let me go
Won't let me go, let go of my heart - Jon Secada/Angel


I've lost my Harley sunglasses, I'm FRANTIC!

So what day was it I said I watched the Oprah show? Oh yeah, Friday. Well I have started, and I am doing well, with the exception of dizzyness and im HUNGRY! You know what I think though? It's all those bastards inside me wanting to eat thats doing it, Im sticking to it!

I would like to publicly thank my buds who never bitch at me for complaining and letting me cry on thier shoulders. Without y'all I don't know what I wouldve done. Brenda, the bogus emails and pictures brightened up my days. Trink, being here to talk has helped me so much. Going through the same thing may help, who knows. I do know you're a wonderfull person and my life is so much better just knowing you. Y'all are great, and hey it's OK that you dont eat boiled peanuts, you can't help it.
When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I will always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead Robbie Williams/Angels


Song Of The Day: AC/DC - Ride On

Friday, April 25

So I’m sitting here watching TV yesterday and we normally watch the “Oprah” show each day during dinner, basically because there isn’t anything on any better. And it’s a story about all these people that have lost a lot of weight, just what I want to watch while I’m eating my delivery pizza. But it was amazing how these guys lost like 300 pounds in 1 year, and then it really got me to thinking (uhoh). First of all I don’t really see myself at the weight I’m at very much longer. I wasn’t as big as those guys, but I’m very much out of shape and yes, I’m fat. I always start loosing weight and start getting to where I can feel a difference, and people start commenting and I start buying new clothes, then I stop. I don’t know why the hell I stop, I just do. But these guys on the show gave me this weird sense of “hey if they can do it, so can I!” And you know, I’m a hard-headed bastard, so if anyone can do it I should be able to. I look at food as an enemy now. What’s my plan? Walk then run, everyday, no matter what, beginning with 30 minutes, then up to an hour. Water, lots of water. Eating, healthy, low cal meals, no more sugar, no more sweet tea, no more pizza, no more chips, no more chocolate, I want to be happy with myself, not with what I eat. So in a year I will be different, a totally different person, of this I’m sure. POSITIVE. I PROMISE YOU, as well as myself…

I went to the movie and saw bulletproof monk a week or so ago, I believe I mentioned that in one of my older posts. Anyway there was this commercial for a Japanese movie named “Shaolin Soccer”. It looked like a “Matrix” type movie that had won a lot of awards in Asia. It’s supposed to be opening soon in the U.S. Anyway, I was on eBay and found the DVD (with subtitles, don’t really like that), but it was only $8 so I got it. I think it should be pretty good, supposed to be the next “Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon”.



Other significant eBay purchases, 1 casino quality deck of Iraqi Playing Cards, for the low low price of $6.95. What am I gonna do with all this junk???



Song Of The Day: David Gray – Babylon
Long after moments of closeness have passed.
A part of you remains with me
and warms the places your hands have touched...
and hastens the heart for your return.
Robert Sexton

Thursday, April 24

I think I’ve mentioned before on here somewhere that I really liked the movie “Grand Canyon” I watched it again the other night and it really makes you think. There is this one scene where they are comparing life to the Grand Canyon and how it’s all so trivial when you really think about it. Kind of like a gnat on a horse’s tail that you’re drive by in a car going 70 miles an hour. Well, the whole movie isn’t as stupid as I’ve probably made that sound, but I really liked it. Oh yeah, and everybody dies in the end…

4 o’clock. The seconds tick by counting down till that magic hour, like the sound of a thousand drums beating as one. The anticipation, wondering, palms getting wet with sweat and of course my mind nowhere else but those thoughts. I’m sure my anxiety level from all of this is going to boil over, like the movie Risky Business when young tom is waiting for the clock to strike 3 to leave school. Then the worst part is when it passes, and nothing happens, then the let down if magnified that much more. And the thoughts are there. 4:15, no not today, maybe tomorrow.

Work really sucked today, either everybody is going crazy or it’s just me. Hmmmmm, yeah I agree what’s up with all those bastards anyway?

Random Rants:
•I hate big candles; they burn down the middle and waste all the wax on the outside, who invented them anyway?
•Can cokes taste like metal. And by the way, all fizzy beverages in Georgia are “Cokes” get over it.
•Showering with no towel in the bathroom. WHEN I’m single I shall own 5000 friggin towels and not use 5 to drape around my wet ass every time I shower then use them to hide from the aliens as Arnie did in Total Recall, lol.
•Cell phone bills, does anyone know how to read the bill? Bastards!
•More to come, if ya want, let me know…

Song Of The Day: Liberty X – Holding On For You

Wednesday, April 23

Well, I have a class tonight. Its bad enough going these days after I work 10 hours at the plant, but tonight is even worse cuz the class didn't make originally and this one guy said he would pay my whole salary just for the 3 hours. So now I feel like there is this pressure to make sure he learns something, lol. Anyway. No really big news today, but I must say I helped Brenda with her BLOG last night and she has the best sense of humor to me, I just laugh out loud when I read it. I will post a link to it here soon, check back!

I keep seeing Penelope everywhere...

Song Of The Day: Bryan Adams - When You're Gone

Tuesday, April 22

Wow, long weekend. Was nice to visit with my sister and her family, but seems every time she comes home I gotta work on her PC. Well, hopefully this time I fixed it where it will work for a bit longer, plus I made her buy Noton, so maybe she won’t get anymore viruses.

Easter was OK, ate too much, kids hunted eggs.

DL’ed Madonna’s new CD, 3 or 4 good songs. Train has a new CD coming out next month, can’t wait for that. No other major music news.

I simply MUST stop listening to this album, its totally making me want to slip my throat! How can a band write 10 songs about breaking up with someone, and each song is something that you can relate to??? Def Leppard – X

Hey, Pip emailed me he has the greatest BLOG; Check It Out

Why do my posts seem uninteresting to me???

Songs of the Day: Def Leppard – Torn to Shreds, Scar, Now, Unbelievable, Long Way to Go, Everyday & Cry